eight hundred words away from peace. but i'm not stressing over it, cause my brain works better without the background noise. this is by far the most stressful period ive encountered since a long time, i dont think ive ever cried over pressure from schoolwork. its usually canoe, family and failure.
but this entire semester has been a complete nightmare.it was constantly one thing after another. please, dont give me that bull about not having exams. ive been getting that since poly. cause frankly its not any easier. all these essay writings might seem like a breeze, but its really not when you have to pile through at least 12 other books just to come up with a 2000 word essay. the pressure is equally high, cause we all wanna do our best.
i reached my breaking point this term. i had completely transformed into a robotic geek who didn't know how to hit the pause button. i just kept pushing myself forward i didnt realise the unneccessary immense amount of heat i had put on myself. i need better work-life balance. its not lousy time management, cause somehow i always finish beforehand, but more of giving myself that break when i really need it.
thankfully for me i had the girls to pull me out, forcing me to hang even when i insisted on cooping myself up with moudly books :)
on the most random note, i miss my family. i just miss seeing them. i miss coming home at 5am in the morning finding my daddy messing about in my room cause he always keeps all his random treasures in it. i miss waking up to him asking about my hangover (lol). i miss my mummy boasting about how awesome she is, cause she really is. i miss how she dresses up all pretty and barges into my room asking if she looks hip. i miss the late nights with my brother, i miss my sister's presence. i think im finally homesick. or id probably been all along, just that i had no time to think about it. i cant be without them. i miss my birthday, not the presents, or the partying, but just having dinner with them. thats what i miss most. & i guess if cant have that, i really dont want anything else.
