Its seriously messed up feeling angry one moment, happy another, sad after... and have it repeat a few hours later. Especially when all you really want to feel is okay. Strong enough to get through the day and manage a few sincere smiles, and maybe a little hopeful that person doesnt creep into your head.
We all want to get better, to stop crying, start healing. But having held on for so long, so tightly, with too many memories.. its overwhelming. & the thought of him living on fine makes you so angry yet the pain kills you inside.
Having to blink back tears & choke on your words, its such a mess.
can you cry yourself sober?
